I'm a little bummed this week. The Rumble was this past Sunday and though I really, really wanted to be there to meet Michelle and a few local running celebrities (Rod, Sean, and Kami) I've come to admire from a distance, I couldn't.
I chose not to participate because I haven't got a lot of trail mileage and in 2006 when I ran 3 of the 4 trail races that compose the Dirt Series, I fell every time. The last fall (during the Dirty Dozen in Sept '06) nearly cost me the opportunity to finish the Portland Marathon. In 2007, while on a trail run prior to the Eugene Marathon, I fell and broke my wrist. I'm thereby nervous about trail races. I could have gone to cheer on those that were running but I needed to get my own long run in and I had the kids with me. I had to make a choice.
Now I'm reading their race reports... reading the articles in the paper... feeling bummed that I missed out on a great race and an opportunity to meet others who share my passion. I really wish I had a partner that could train with me. I want to join CORK and enjoy the comraderie of running with others but several obstacles make it difficult. DH works long hours and many late nights making childcare a little tricky. When he is home, I prefer to spend time with him as a family and feel guilty when I go off to run alone. The jogging stroller doesn't fold easily to transport to group runs... and I fear that the other runners might not particularly enjoy their presence. Additionally, frequently the trails aren't wide enough for a double-wide jogger. Thus, I am forced to go it alone on the road.
I'm sorry. I'm just feeling a little lonely and needed to share my thoughts.
ORN: Wed 6.23 miles @ 57:37 Avg Pace 9:15